Interesting.

I’ve been watching a TV series on DVD that I just acquired, called, “Supernatural”.

Now, I’ve been thinking about buying it for quite some time, but chose not to because of an observation from a close friend.

She said the show was quite dark.

She was right.

But what I find interesting, is that what used to bother me….ALOT….does not anymore.

My boys and I have been talking alot lately, about this particular change in me.  You see, I used to be strict about the movies and shows I watched, about the books I read. I used to  be the good christian girl, and I kept ‘my eyes from evil’.

Looking back…I think that was an excuse.

I think I was just afraid. Terribly, horribly afraid…that my nightmares were true. That evil would get me and there was no safe place.

And yet.

Here I sit after going through my life blowing up…..and I think fear has lost it’s edge.

If I had tried to watch a show like ‘Supernatural’ or Buffy, the Vampire Slayer’, etc. 8 years ago or more…I’d have freaked out.

And I would never have let my children see anything of the sort.

Now….well, my children aren’t children anymore, so that’s a bit different.

But it’s alot more than that.

I’m not afraid of the freaky crap anymore. Conversely, I also believe even more strongly in the supernatural and paranormal than ever before.

I enjoy watching it…even the freaky stuff. And I enjoy analysing it. I think there is some real stuff that they build on…but sorting out the real from the Hollywood is…interesting.

My boys and I talk about this stuff alot lately…they express typical unbelief I’d expect…and yet they’ve seen unusual stuff. They’ve lived with me, so weird stuff happens. They know that.

I just found out that one of the guys I work with is in the process of become a Practitioner. I find that interesting…yet I pray for him as well. You see, I explore alot of stuff like this, but I have an anchor that I count on. My friend does not.

So I think I’ll watch over him.

And I’ll read books, and watch movies and shows….and enjoy the fact that fear has lost it’s hold on much of my life.

6 Comments »

  1. Erin Said:

    A practitioner of what specifically? Wicca? Druidry? Just curious.

    Anyhow, it doesn’t scare me either. There is a piece in there somewhere that I have yet to sort out, but in the end, yes, the Anchor means everything.

  2. Mike Said:

    Besides ~ the stuff really rocks!! I am a total fan of the “paranormal”, occult and whatever other name folks want to give it. I love reading about and looking up stories about ghosts and hauntings and have had experiences of my own when I was in Germany back in the early 80′s.

    I believe in some of the New Age teachings and one of my best friends in the world while I was living in Texas was a psychic – and a damn good one too.

    Of course, I am the type of person that if someone tells me to not do something, that’s the first thing that I want to do. I am the epitome of the sinful nature.

  3. chevachon Said:

    Hey, you guys!
    Erin, he is becoming a practitioning Witch. Apparantly more than Wiccan..not necessarily Druid.
    I am interested in his journey, as he is a very kind person. Loving. The kind a person I want to be like when I grow up….:)
    Mike…I was not like you. I always obeyed, even to my detriment. Until now. Lately, like you, I persue the stuff that I was denied access to.
    I, too, believe in alot of New Age stuff…though I tend to look to see where God is in the middle of it.
    And if I were to deny psychic stuff, I’d end up denying myself and my closest friend. But of course, in church system we were in, it’s just catorgorized as ‘prophetic’. That used to be okay with me, but now I find that the label of prophetic is so limiting.
    And I’ve been researching ghosts a little, and to not believe they exist would be closing my eyes to way too much history.
    Even the bible holds accounts of ghosts…so I wonder why such unbelief?
    I would love to hear a little about your experiences with ghosts…did you find that it was more common in older countries?
    I have found that Canada has less of this stuff than in Europe…one of the reasons I want to go to Scotland a live for a while. I want to sense what is about…Thin Places..access points and ley lines..that sort of stuff.

  4. Erin Said:

    One of my good online friends, Jarred, is a witch, and I have learned the most interesting things from him.

    I have to wonder, too, if places like Ireland, or Scotland…I don’t even know why I think this other than from accounts from people who have been there, is like you said, the sense of a thin place…where the natural and supernatural or spirit worlds are close together. I would love to spend time visiting them one day. Maybe you and I together!

  5. chevachon Said:

    That would be awesome, Erin. Since we have a grand time when we are together….watch out, Scotland!

  6. Sue Said:

    Ooh, can I meet you guys there? :)

    I love the concept of “thin places”. I think too that what Churchianity deems to be “occult” is kinda anything that’s not out of a science lab, in some respects :)

    I’m more like you now too, Che, in being able to watch things which once I wouldn’t. I remember at one point not wanting to watch any of the Harry Potter stuff because it was occultish.


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